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Aaahh!!! Real Monsters

I have always wondered if Crumb ever swallowed his own eyes before by mistake....or what would happened...

hmm anyways just thinking and watching some clips

Im still in l♥ve with my ex... and I shouldnt be...
I should be falling for my new bf....
right now Im looking for reasons why I should stay in a relationship I have now
and yet Im looking for reasons to leave...

a part of me hopes that If my bf and I break up, I will have another chance to fix what I messed up with Cody

*sighs*

♥
[ica]

broken inside, dont know how to fix it.
feeling so empty.
I have this empty void deterring me from inside out
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so its been almost a week since I found out my ex and one of my "good" friends are now dating...secretly

It hurts...more than anything... especially when you still want him, but you "moved" on..
when I close my eyes, its him whom I pretending to kiss and not the current bf :\

♥
[ica]

What I am craving soo bad is a cigg... BUT I had promise my bf that i would quit smoking TT_TT
hmm yea I suppose its for my health and good that I am quitting.. but UGH... it would taste sooo good with my coffee. But ahjsfi euhfoiweforpweifjoiaeruiowaesunr
blah.. its BARELY the second week of school. hmm Im hoping I can move closer to school. Two of my friends are looking for a place and I think [hopefully] I will move with them.
most I will pay is $430 [i think] blah.. soooo tired.
peace

♥
[ica]

Hmm well break is coming to an end.
joy ¬¬ not looking much forward to going back to school.
*sighs* oh well. But I AM looking forward to later on this
coming week. Because I am going to spend the day with
John. *sigh* Im slightly nervous. Because I am going to ask
him if we are a couple or will we ever get together.

Im worried about my sister. It feels like no matter what I say
at the moment shes going to cry. Her parents are getting a
divorce and her father is blaming her for the reason why they arnt happy

♥
[ica]

Hmm, today is the last day of school for the quarter for moi!
and well Jacob too... we have the same class today..
hmm well. Im quite nervous. gonna be.
Not sure if I should tell my dad the TRUTH... or just a white liiiieeeeee
¬¬... Jacob is talking what hes gonna type and its messing me up....
hmm anyways coffee..mmMMMmm tasty in the morning of today :D
hmm also I feel happy, and for once I am actually GENUINELY smiling.
that one boy that I have been talking to, he makes me smile. and I cant believe
this but I think my heart skips a beat when I talk to him :\
I know he feels the same if anything its sorta.
*sighs* class doesnt start till 9:20am today... fuck

okie off to go change my meez outfit and to add Jacob to it!

YAY LAST DAY THEN ITS HIBERNATION!!!
OH and I see that boy on sunday...umm yay? but oi... freaking out

[ica]

So today.
Theres a boy I am starting to like, but we've never met.
only chatted through the net. sorta scary, but yea.
so far it seems like that this boy and I are soo much alike.
same history and all.
IDK... hmm Oh but there is one thing that I am proud of!!
I mad two necklaces for my sis for her sweet 16. well shes
my god sister. [A godparent, in many denominations of Christianity,
is someone who sponsors a child's baptism. Judaism has this equivalent
in the circumcision ceremony. A male godparent is a godfather
and a female godparent is a godmother. The child is a godchild
(godson, goddaughter). my momma is her god mother. thus god sisters]

[ica]

So... for some reason I always find the first entry of any kind of journal [or something of that sort] just to be the most awkward place for me.
Idk, its sorta like a OCD... like for instance I refuse to write on the first page of a notebook, sketchbook or a journal. I always flip to the second page.


So I dont really know why I have this in the first place [a journal]
when I have one on www.sitdiary.net or my lame of excuse account on myspace.

I often jump topics and jump back. so this may get a bit confusing for others. [if others ever decide to read this s≠!†]

Im a designer, a lover, a friend, a sister, a daughter, a bitch. But most importantly I am myself and I go by the name of [ica]

often times you will find me ranting and not making sense, or times you will notice that I dont write.


I guess time will tell.

[ica]